fear is evil guys.. it's a primary response..
anger is a cop-out for what really ails you.. Just like jealousy and a slew of other negative emotions.. they're all agents, and in league with fear.

love counters fear.. its THE primary response.
what are you going to do with your love? For Christ sake and for all that's holy, let it SHINE Connie... You give it a fighting chance and it will take all comers. I ain't picking on you... Please don't take it that way..  I wouldn't mind following you... Believe me, I need all the help I can get.

Words are easy. Its my humble opinion, that each morning we have a choice. We can either continue to track the paths we let the world set for us, or we can do the hard thing (which is most often the right thing) and make our own way. Words are easy though.

I read into what you've shared, and the strangest memory came instantly to mind.. At first I thought, "WHY DID THAT memory surface??", but then it landed on me.. here: I was getting a shot... a great big ol' huge gauge needle with something the consistency of motor oil in it.. right before the lady jammed that thing in me she slapped the crap out of my shoulder blade with a flat palm.. I mean she came out of left field with that thing and I had no idea it was coming.. I never felt the needle.. She replaced the discomfort with something else to hide the discomfort and it worked.. I wonder how often we do this to ourselves regularly and don't even know it... "keep slappin me lady" is the thought process, "because as long as I can manufacture something else just as real I can ignore whats really happening".. I think everybody who fancies themselves 'tough' has simply learned this trick.. It's a dang shame it works.

Darlin, you do what your heart tells you.. Don't listen to that fear though.. that rascal is just a bully.